I have very recently come to the realization that I am struggling with severe burnout. The worst it’s ever been. I work two jobs, am living on my own for the first time, and cope with some pretty severe mental illness.
My second job has been scheduling me way more than I asked. I have since talked to them, but I let it go for a while because I wanted the money and I wanted to believe I could handle it. I feel like I am constantly going and going and going. I cannot catch my metaphorical breath. I am beginning to completely break down over tiny things that I could usually handle. I want a break. I think I need a break.
So I am thinking about giving myself a four day break, starting tomorrow (or technically today now I guess- shift is supposed to start in 6 hours). The four days I’m taking off, my schedule is as follows:
Saturday: part time job
Sunday: full time job
Monday: part time and full time job
Tuesday: scheduled off both jobs
So I’d be calling off two shifts per job. I feel ashamed and scared. Management at my full time job is actually very supportive. And I have a medical accommodation that allows me to miss two days a month due to my mental illnesses, so there won’t be actual repercussions. It’s my part time job at freaking Old navy that’s scaring me. They’re very hard on you when calling off. They push you very hard to come in and shame you if you don’t. They have made multiple girls cry, including me.
I’m just looking for reassurance that this is an okay thing to do. That it doesn’t make me weak. I mean don’t reassure me if you don’t think it’s okay obviously, but I figured this sub would provide a lot of support.