i’ve been working while attending college this semester and my mental and emotional fortitude have already always been… not great. but now, money wise, things went from bad last year to terrible this year. i already am scared of the idea of having to do this the rest of my life. the idea of having to work is fucking scary because i never know when my back is gonna go out or if i’m just gonna snap.
my health was really terrible in 2021 but i was getting unemployment every week and holy FUCK did it help my mental health. i never had to worry about over drafting or if i was going to have to miss paying my bills. i wasn’t in credit card debt because i didn’t need credit cards.
i work at a pet store retailer and they fall into the same corporate bull shit of changing their “standard” every fucking week and then getting mad when i didn’t know about the knew standard. there is no fucking down time, and there is very little care about the animals being sold. that’s the worst part. i’ve had to see so many fish die in the most gruesome fucking ways and i never did at the other two pet companies i worked for. when i complained about some of the “standards” i was not taken seriously.
if i’m gonna be really honest, i was just gonna admit myself to a mental hospital so i could at least have some sort of break without the risk of getting fired or failing.