Prefacing this with saying I know I have to get a job again. I can’t just leech off my mom, especially when the system’s already sucking the life out of her. I have debt to pay off. I know I have to go and get a job again.
But man. Not working has been so nice. I don’t constantly feel my life draining away from me. I have time and energy to do the things I want (just not the money lol). I haven’t felt this lack of stress in my life in such a long time.
Reading what everyone’s going through with their jobs, about jobs taking advantage of people only to not even pay them a livable wage…. It makes it so hard to do it. Any job I get I’ll be stressed out again and not make enough to really make a dent in anything anyways. Any job I’ve been applying to never gets back to me, unless they’re paying like 11$ or 12$ an hour. I’m making more on unemployment. (Which I know will end but still. I’m not able to fill my end of paying my debts at all with what they’re giving me now as it is)
Just wanted to vent I guess. It’s really hard to do something when I know all I’m going to get from it is negative. How do you do it? How do I not hate my life when I’m back to working, especially after feeling the good life of not working? If it wasn’t for my mom struggling and working, I’d gladly stay broke my entire life if it meant never working again. I wish we could both just be rich and living the good life. Alas, I was born an average American instead of in the 1% 🥲