This August, it will be an year since I (21F) have started working my first job after college. Ever since I started my work, I cant remember the last time I was actually happy. I hate my job, I hate my life, I hate everything around me. I and literally most of the people I know have started noticing how I have changed. I used to be very jolly, happy, and had bubbly personality but now i am depressed. Like I am actually sad. I cry all the time and I am always anxious about my work. I keep getting dreams about my work and work is literally all I can think of.
The pay is very good for someone right after college. It is a hybrid work so I get to WFH too but I still absolutely hate it. To the point that some morning i might just fake a sickness at work, drive to the airport, catch a flight to San Francisco, and jump off the golden gate bride (I am not kidding).
I have been searching for another job but the market is really really terrible right now. But, I know a new job won’t solve my problem either because my friends who graduated with me and are working, seem to have the exact same issues. No one seems happy.