According to everyone, I should be happy. I am apparently lucky to have gotten this job with such ease. But honestly I’m not feeling particularly happy or lucky. It’s just another place to waste the hours of my life and sell my time for a paycheck. I’d rather make more and work less, but unfortunately I need the benefits more than the peace. Do not know what I was planning to get out of this other than to vent to ppl who might understand instead of just seeing me an ungrateful for not being an excited wage slave.