This is gonna be a long rant I dont even know why I'm posting it.
I'm 18 and last week I started my first job as a “cashier” for minimum wage at a very popular supermarket in my country. It was a rushed decision, the lady who offered me the job said it would be part time but they told me it would be full time the day I was gonna sign the papers. I accepted because I REALLY need the money.
They told me it would be 8 hours a day and 6 days a week, but that there was at least an hour break every day. I had to work 14 hours on my first day and they gave me one 15 minute break and one 30 minute break.
I thought i was only going to work as a cashier but i also have to keep half of the store organized, sweep the floors three times a day, empty and place all the boxes, check all the expiration dates and stuff, which honestly sounds easy since people are working so much harder than this, but what frustrates me is that they keep telling me how bad I am at it.
It's a medium sized store, not too big or too small, and there are 5 employees but they're always either in the storage room or outside smoking. I'm usually left alone in the store and when I have to ask something I have to run around the store so many times just to find someone who can help. And then I still get scolded for leaving the register but I literally have no idea what I'm supposed to do. On my third day I got a whole damn essay from the store's manager about how terrible I'm doing.
Like I said, I know it sounds easy and I expected these to happen before I started, but the constant berating and the foot ache just makes me want to die. I'm already in a bad mental place (I dont want to self diagnose since I can't get professional help but I've attempted suicide a few times before, not that it matters), and there's so much stress going on in my life already I just dont know what to do anymore.
How long will this go on? Will I just get used to it at one point? I have so many dreams and aspirations but I feel all of them dying every minute i work here. I know I'm being dramatic lol but I barely had the will to live before this, it's getting even worse.
My breaks over now time to go I guess.