I work somewhere where the managers know each other for ages and are friends outside of work. Which is fine, whatever.
People are polite and friendly. But when we f*** up, the peasants, the reaction is different.
At first, I thought, hey new career = I’m learning, so I’m making small mistakes. But the past couple of weeks, when managers miss something, I keep getting the blame even thought they clearly didn’t do the work as much as we are excepted to do it ourselves.
It’s a massive downer because it’s okay to say you missed something rather than always brush it off; it keeps the trust and the team together. We are humans. What I find funny is to see my colleagues, just about anyone, rather lie and die than say “oh shit” I missed it. My bad, and move on.
Working in this type of cooperate environnement feels very rotten, not some breaking news. They do sell you the perfect dream but when you ask for a 4 days a week for better mental health at work, they perhaps think free breakfast would replace that freedom lol
And not only learning is slow, salary stays stagnant but demands grow. I can’t even quiet quit – too busy.
I’m waiting for some time to build my own portfolio and leave back to self-employment. Where I was making more and learning faster.
I think even great managers soon find out that really the cooperate world, the we are your family but we can fire you, doesn’t work. And they leave. The ones who stay, only stay for the security. And fair enough I guess. But at what cost? Ask permission to another adult for time off? Limited time off.
I don’t know, it’s all so weird. I’m glad people are demanding more finally. Full-time is very new for me, and well, maybe it has that “security” but god it s*cks. Golden handcuff at best.