So, my boss has a tremendous problem with anger management. He can’t take constructive criticism, and he has decided that I’m the root of all his problems. I’m not, obviously, im just the one that speaks up loud. So im some what the root of my own problems. Wish I didn’t care that much, but my coworkers and clients appreciate me. That’s what I care about.
I live in a country where we have a flat business model, meaning everyone is worth the same, and the boss and the coworkers usually talks to each other the same. My boss is an older man, and he can’t stand women if they’re not blond and trying to please his huge ego.
He’s been a problem since he came into the business, especially for me. He keeps yelling at me, and I’ve told him multiple times that he scares me when he acts like that. He just gets more triggered. More than half of the stab has quit now, he blames me for that too, since we’re going to the same place.
So this Thursday I told him that I didn’t like the way he spoke to me, and that he didn’t only scare me, but also another female colleague. I told him this calmly, and since I had sent in my resignation I had more courage to me. It ended with him being awful to me, told me I was the worst person he had ever met and that to “go to hell”. I still have three months left, and I don’t know what to do.
Also, I’m just scared of what he might do now. He is really triggering my past trauma, and I’ve been recording for months how I’ve been crying at work after his interactions with me.
I think it hurts the most, because he is not the first man who have said it. My dad was the first man, and then I’ve had a few boyfriends who have said the same thing. None of my friends, or clients, or co workers have said it. Just men who have had small egos. I don’t mean to trigger them, but something I do makes them hate me. I’m thinking about not going back to work at all, just give up my life and let it all just die. I will at least go on sick leave for the next three months. Fucking asshole. I’m going to miss my co workers and clients.