I'm burned out. I've been burned out, and the only thing I have to look forward to is my five day break starting the 22nd. (It would have been four but I have a doctor's appointment I've had scheduled since October. My Christmas miracle if im being honest.)
I usually love Christmas. It's my favorite time of year, but my depression on top of this job has been dragging me down.
It's just a constant cycle. I've been applying to other places constantly. It feels hopeless and bleak. Like I'll be in dead end jobs the rest of my life, barely making anything.
I feel apathetic to life and I don't see it getting better.
All I want for Christmas is a job I actually like, that doesn't depress me.