I know this is a subreddit about ending work, but I need to vent a bit.
In the beginning of the year I fell ill and my work decided to fire me because I wouldn't tell them the diagnosis, only how long I'd be out (they're not allowed to enquire about the nature of the illness in my country, nor fire you for illness but it's hard to prove in court that is what they did).
Anyway, been looking for a job since my benefits are 60% of my second to last pay (I had two employers the past 12 months, so my insurance deems that to be unstable and thus they go with the first employer of the year instead of the last one, difference in pay was 500 a month easily). I don't have enough money to cover all my costs, I have pets that have helped me through really dark times and I don't want to give them up but I might have to.
The experience I have is not suitable for the jobs I want to apply for (= jobs I can actually do long term without burning out) so employers either outright tell me no or ghost me.
Meanwhile I found out my rental agreement won't be renewed come March and I can't find any pet friendly places to rent on my budget. Which means I'll be on the streets and I couldn't forgive myself for turning my pets out on the street with me, so I am rehoming them. And for me, a life without pets to care for, is sort of meaningless (I know it's stupid, but they kept me from committing suicide a couple of years ago) so in a way it doesn't matter I can't find a job, or a new home. It only sucks I won't have a bathtub for a fairly painless method to go and will just have to do it another way on the street.
The worst thing is, if the insurance company had actually gone with the last wages, I'd have been fine covering for everything currently. I'd be with less stress, which means I would perform better on interviews and tests for employment. It really sucks and I am having a self pity party right now for a few hours before I try to look for more jobs. But I am so tired and am questioning why I even bother anymore. I hustled for over a decade trying to better my life, and I ended up having it worse than when I started. Blame it on lack of skills, lack of education, stupid decisions I made before… but it just really really sucks right now.