Antiwork

I'm okay with killing myself or starving to death if that's the only other option I got. Death is preferable to a lifetime of misery spent working hard for a job that I hate and is making me incredibly depressed. It's a pretty easy choice: suffer for a few days and die, or suffer for a lifetime and die. I can't keep working a job that makes me so miserable that I end up being depressed and suicidal out of it. and I dont want to pump myself full of meds and drink myself to sleep just to be mentally numb all day so I can work my shift At this point I'm okay with dying. Not many will care, maybe my parents, but they too no longer wish to see me suffer like this either.

I work as a kitchen porter at a fancy 'award winning' hotel in the UK. I am autistic. I was bullied by a coworker for being autistic since November. I and other co-workers repeatedly reported this and it wasn't taken seriously until January. Even after my bosses finally talked to them it continued and my brain broke. I got signed off with mental health issues at the end of January and I have been off sick since. I got my first paycheck since I've been signed off and they haven't paid me any sick pay. This is bullshit. I have no other options and they know that. I wasn't going to put in a complaint with HR about ableism but I am now. It's my bosses fault I'm off and they won't even give me statuary sick pay. Fuck them.