Antiwork

I’ve been having some insane anxiety since yesterday evening leading up to work this morning. It has resulted in one panic attack and one near panic attack that I got control of. I was unable to get any sleep at all because of this. But I just can’t say I need a mental health day, I don’t even know why. I guess there’s just something that’s telling me that isn’t a good enough excuse, I mean I think it should be. But I feel like my boss would disagree. I hope that I don’t get any blowback from this, idk how I even would. I mean my drive shaft does need to be replaced, and I have another car I could borrow and just say that mines in the shop. Just wondering if anyone has thoughts on this, should I have just said I need a mental health day?

I used to work in a hospital. I knew on the employee side it was terrible. My department wasn’t offered the same extra pay for dealing with COVID patients and we had 10 hour shifts with a 30 minute break. I had to sneak out to my car for the occasional cigarette to make it every day. The nurses were lazy and talked straight garbage about every patient. After I had my son, I spent time in that hospital on the patient side of things. I was told that the delivery nurses were the best in the whole hospital so I was comforted by that. Our son ended up in the NICU and we were told that we could see him that night. The nurse ignored our call light all night. And the next morning when we asked if we could go, they caught an attitude with me. We were…