Its not that I'm even surprised anymore. I took 2 weeks off back in April for June 26th till July 5th. I didn't think to schedule the weekend before to have off because I always had weekends off. Even in the past I was actually scolded for scheduling weekends off on my vacation time (that i never got to use because work or family needed me) because it insinuated that “I didn't think my manager could do his job”
Surprisingly the vacation time was granted and when I was scheduled next week and reminded him I was on vacation (with a time stamped text saying I was going away) He was quick to reschedule everything. Getting the schedule now i see… I'm scheduled weekends. I tell him about it and he goes on about how “2 weeks is too much to ask” (i asked for a week and 4 days) and ” when people ask for days off. Their days change” I mean it feels like you can't plan for anything with that. And when I did plan ahead by scheduling weekends off too. I was reprimanded? Like what do you want from me?
He then adds “we don't have alot of staff y'know.” YEAH I do know. Because I'm staying over my shift hours every day for a year while my relief has to take her kids to school. I was told to come in later as a way to save the company overtime. But… I work nights. Its not enough that my sleep schedule is already fucked up due to the longer shifts I have to pull every work day. But now you're trying to fuck it up further? No. Not to mention the other times I've stayed late to make sure shifts were filled. Came in early to help my coworkers. Train newhires and be the contact point for two department I'm not even a part of.
Every day at this job feels like another straw on the camels back. I loath coming in anymore. I've haven't had a vacation in years. You wanted me to take this vacation. Yet when I actually take it you suddenly throw up more roadblocks for me to manuver?
I may not be the best at my job. Ant some days it feels far from it. But I know I'm not the worst and I actually do my job. And I'm sober throughout it. I understand that this vacation is just a bandaid on a brain tumor but if I don't take it I may take a life. Weather its my own or someone else's is yet to be determined.
I've had worse jobs. This one isn't sending me into a full on panic attack… but I can't do this line of work anymore. I hate people, I hate what nightshift has done to me. I wish there was a way to have the perks of nightshift (no management, little customer interaction, general freedom to do /wear whatever so long as your job was completed. ) while maintaining a work life balance that i don't sleep through
Thank you for your time
Tldr: roadblock after roadblock on my way to vacation. Boss uses guilt techniques to make me feel bad for asking for time that should of been off anyway