I work as an analyst for a loan company and can't stand it anymore. I get paid less than 70k per year to help people that are multi millionaires buy properties to make themselves richer. We have so many processes. that are such a headache to keep up with and follow to a T that I end the day feeling like I can't think about anything more than what 2+2 is sometimes. God forbid I do a couple things a bit out of protocol and I get called on it, not enough to make me quit immediately but enough that I do worry if I am going to have a job the next week since I am only just over 1 year in and most other analysts are released from review way before then. My supervisors keeps saying I am doing a great job but as much as I feel like I am good at what I do for the most part, I'm not a robot and I make mistakes. Also, I have zero care about this job because in the end its just arbitrary numbers and digital money that we are working with to allow others to build more wealth.
I want (don't want but need) another job that lets me actually breath and not feel like I am going to get fired if I mess up and make the closing on some random millionaire's loan be pushed out a few days. Very much not looking forward to my meeting with the bosses tomorrow, it makes me not want to do anymore work today… but I feel guilty if I wanted to take the day off also. Thanks for letting me rant.