ive struggled with thoughts of not loving and hurting myself for years. at this point ive been on medication and been seeing a therapist for a few years. it's helped a ton and i no longer feel half as bad as i used to. anyway here's the issue, i can only think about su¡c¡de, s3lf h4rm, dru9s, etc while at work. sure there's a lot going on in my life but i only feel this way at work and it consumes my day.
i'm 17 so my shifts are only 5.5-4.5 hours long and the customers arent bad. the biggest downside is im making minimum wage. ive been working here almost 5 months and plan to change jobs once i graduate this year. how do i stop feeling this way and get through my job?