I’m usually a big believer in giving 2 weeks notice, but this Friday was the culmination of a big amount of circumstances to the point I needed to get out ASAP.
Over the last year I’d been dealing with escalating verbal abuse, including being called a “fucking p-word,” a “mother fucker,” and just Tuesday of last week being asked if I was a “fucking automaton or can you use your fucking brain.”
I was put in the role of manager after working for 6.5 years, as a salesman, asking specifically for a list of my responsibilities and what they expect from a manager. I even had this list written out by them. Turns out of course there were things they didn’t tell me they expected that I didn’t know needed to be done, including overseeing our whole repair department despite that spanning multiple stores. Rather than explain “in the future this is something we expect you to handle, we’re disappointed this hasn’t been done” (which still wouldn’t be fair but would have been respectful), they went on a rant hurling insults at me. Funnily enough they asked what my job description was which I had written and didn’t include overseeing repairs.
After coming across an email about me on my boss’s gmail which he left open (unethical but he left it open saying “thoughts on _____”) I learned they planned on either demoting or firing me soon, but wanted me to finish rushing through a project I was working on so they had it done as I’m the only one able to do it. Decided there and then I needed to be in a place that actually respected me and I couldn’t stand it anymore. I didn’t make this decision alone though. My wife, mother, sister, friends, coworkers, and more all urged me this was well past time I needed to get out.
Even though I know I was miserable and not respected in a hostile work environment I can’t stop having panic attacks worrying about finding something to replace it. Ridiculous for a $40k salary job that normally I’d tell people can be replaced in a second. Any advice on how to deal with the anxiety?