Month: March 2022

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I’ve been working at a restaurant for about a month. It’s gearing up for the busy season. When I was hired I was the third server on the staff and was getting three shifts a week. Then they hired new people and gave them three shifts and me just two. I figured I’d be patient. This week I requested two days off, but since my schedule changes every week I figured they’d just give me two days out of the remaining 3 available days. I open my schedule: zero shifts. The anxiety sent me into s physical state of shock and I had to go into work. A consummate professional, I served my guests perfectly, then decided to talk to the boss about why my schedule gave me zero shifts. I was told that this is what they meant by flexibility. Being ok with zero income?! Not knowing what days,…

I just got finished laying in the tub under a luke-warm shower ejecting food out both ends of my digestive system after soiling myself trying to get in my car and drive to work after being up all night with similar issues. And I'm laying there crying because I know I'm letting the other employees down and that this will probably be a write up and maybe cost me my job. (Said issues very specifically caused by a nasty TV dinner that was my meal after a 13 hr shift, no worries of underlying health problems.) TLDR: I'm violently sick but years of employment have conditioned me to feel like the real problem is me not going to work.

And it just came ro my mind that if you do say it's for money, people say you should've studied better in school or whatever you were in. It's kinda sad how people think only someone who was a good student is worthy of a good job. There's multiple reasons why someone might not be a good student, mental health is biggest of them, some yragedy might've happened. Like I understand general education is better for everyone but why so much pressure and importance to this. There has to be people who weren't goid students but knew what and how to do things. People always say, 'Hey look at him, he failed his classes but he's a CEO now and yadda yadda.' But if you fail anything, the whole world come crashes down. They say take that as motivation but what motivation, I'm not him and him not I.