Month: July 2023

Cw: rape, suicidal ideation I was raped two months ago, and since then my work performance hasn’t been quite as good. I’ve been hospitalized twice for suicidal ideation, and the day everyone was back at work after the second hospitalization my supervisor and ED had a “pre disciplinary” meeting with me. I’m missing deadlines, they don’t feel confident I can lead projects, my quality of work is lower. No specifics. They said that since I always over perform, I “can’t get away with” not doing as well. I checked all my work and my notes: I was late on ONE MINOR ASSIGNMENT and I led ONE MEETING with a little less than perfect confidence. They were especially upset that I wasn’t giving notice (???) before taking leave, and that I was behind in my projects from taking so much leave (7 days altogether over two months). I think they violated…

I think many people got into advertising and marketing for more reasons than selling beer or fast food. There are various fascinating aspects to it — such as sociology, psychology, anthropology, and research. There’s also analysis, technical skills, and reasoning. Frustrating: Being a salesperson of high-end items and barely making a living salary. Meanwhile, there’s often distrust from customers and judgment from others who don’t think too kindly of salespeople. A big part of the job, though, is trying to establish trust and build relationships with people in approx. 30 minutes to an hour. That’s not easy. I think that people creating blogs about their personal lives with photos is a really bad idea. Then they leave it online for years. It’s not so “cool” or “fun” to try to gain an audience of strangers by writing about one’s life like it’s reality TV. Those things usually don’t turn out…

For more context I show up everyday early with the exception of 2 separate days where I was 5 minutes late. Started ride sharing for an alcoholic co-worker who likely has a DUI and I don't get up any earlier than I previously did but we still manage to show up on time as his pick-up relatively on the way. It's asphalt work, hard and dirty work as it is. Small, cheap family owned company who neglects equipment and workers. I'm 29, own everything outright including my residence so I don't have to work as hard as I do but it's satisfying and I enjoy some aspects of asphalt work. My co-workers don't know that as they're all in debt or drink away pay cheques. Already applying to other jobs but I just needed to vent and at least someone will know I'll get the last laugh as next week…