(If the mods want to remove my post I understand)
I don't know who will see this, but I need a place to vent as I feel lost in the civilian world. Let me start by saying my military background has conditioned me to act and work a certain way. For starters, I'm not too fond of corporate lingo and “numbers”. It's fake and it is part of the reason the American workforce can't cohesively work together in my personal opinion. Along with shit pay, I understand how every American in my exact position feels. When I left the Navy I did it for mental health reasons and got out on my own terms sorta. Covid was rough on me in my final Years in the Navy I couldn't do a proper checkout process cause my ship had to go to sea for some essential mission. We really went out for about 4 months with no contact with the outside world It broke me mentally. Upon getting out I had a decent amount of money saved up with no debt. The smart thing to do is get a job so I did just that. I landed a sales rep position at T-Mobile, I personally never viewed myself as a good salesperson but my bosses and coworkers loved me. 2 weeks in I started getting trained for an assistant manager position. I was happy for a short time on my first call my DM called me out on shit I had no training on and was never told about. On the call I threatened to kill him, he didn't hear it but my manager at the time muted the phone and started laughing. A couple of weeks later T-Mobile dropped my offer and got a new manager and assistant manager to help run the store. Cause I was brainwashed I kept working my ass off covering for them if they didn't show up, which happened a lot my manager he was the main issue with no support for our team. I eventually told them I was out they offered me a raise, from 15.50 to 18/hr I told them no and dipped. I then started working at Verizon and picked it up fast and was really good. But more or less the same thing happened to a tee I ended up getting laid off due to the Verizon cuts. Fast forward to now I'm not gonna say where I work but it's at a storage facility. I work alone on site and was handed a shitshow of a facility where the previous manager stole around $80k from the owners. After 4 months of busting my ass, I've accumulated multiple tasks and multiple higher-ups in the company watching my facility like a hawk. I blacked out in anger today and told my DM if this job was even worth the 19/hr, this was after I had a site visit from the second highest cooperate person in our company I basically told him I feel fucked. He berated me with questions which I guess in his words I was dodging. My manager asked “How did you think the site visit went?” if you ever get that question just say it went terribly. In my tiny rage-filled petty caveman brain I replied “I think it went great” My DM was silent for about 20 seconds. More or less I'm pretty sure I'm either getting fired soon or they just want me to leave so it's not an issue.
TLDR: Old military man gets fucked by corporate America.
Side note:
I know there is a lot of missing context with this post 2 years of trying to figure out civilian life along with trying to seek mental help from the VA has brought me to the lowest of lows. I'm tired and exhausted and don't really have much hope anymore. If you are curious about specifics I will try my best to respond. I wish everyone in this subreddit the best.