Posting here since I wanted to hear some more opinions, to get some perspective you can also look at the post I just posted on r/insomnia
Basically I started this new job 2 months ago and I love it but it’s been a lot of pressure, 8 hour days sometimes longer for meetings or events. you’re to always be on your feet doing something, its 2 workers there that just bring everyone down I swear, I’ve had coworkers telling me they wanna quit, another coworker swore at her so it isn’t just me. It gets to me, I’m belittled for the way I do things, I do the job but if I don’t do it her way I’m immediately yelled at and told to do it differently, made out to be stupid. it’s just no respect or constructive criticism you know? I was handling it up until last week when my grandfather died working through that was hard and I haven’t slept properly in ages. I couldn’t even take a full day off for the funeral, gotta work straight after and I’m mourning it all. Can’t take sick days off either I was sick 2 weeks ago, tried to call in but was told I’d be alright and that it’s no one else that can work. These girls work hard im trying to get on their level which they expect me to but it’s so hard and breaking me apart. Haven’t slept for 2 days straight and I start at 9 tomorrow. If you think that’s what’s stressing me no, I’m stressing over the fact I’m going through so much and all I’m gonna get is criticised if I lose focus for even a minute. I have been struggling to get a full time job all year so quitting isn’t an option at this point. I just feel so alone and like I’m the loser that works there. Any opinions etc would be appreciated.