I haven't talked about it to anyone but my therapist so lucky you. As the title suggests I have PTSD from working as a nursing assistant at a hospital.
The real kicker, I'm under a contract and I can't quit. I agreed to work with them for a year or I'd have to pay them $1,200. I dread going to work and even on my days off it's all I can think about. I hear my pager, the IV beeps, phone ringing, etc all the times, especially when I'm trying to sleep. I have intrusive thoughts like if I broke my arm I'd no longer be able to do my job and my contract would be null.
I wanna quit so bad, not just for my safety but my patients but I cannot afford it. I just wanted to get all of that off my chest.