Maybe food service is just not for me. I'm used to work environments where you can be social. I have mostly guy co workers and the other females are my boss who is my age, her 16 y/o daughter and an 18 year old.
I, personally, have been going through some hormonal issues that a lot of women go through and have been told from others that it was also hard on them because basically.. no one likes you.. because you're snappy, moody and I end up crying more than I intend. I am also on severe pain for a couple days a month. Especially with my boss being a women's I explained this to her and recently expressed that I think I'm getting it figured out because I want to do better.. and she meets me with explaining myself as “I don't understand.. what are you saying” last night I unloaded ok her about the situation I will explain happened last night and she told me I'm always crying and to ask myself if I'm happy at my job.
I'm constantly told I'm doing okay but yet have my workers having something bad to say about me. I know I'm not the best at my job but I go in and do my best. When I first started with this company they wanted to make me shift leader at their new location but let's just say business expansion didn't go as planned so I had to transfer to the one I'm at now.
We have a coworker who is critical of everyone. Literally all the time “who prepped these trash ______!?” At previous jobs I was told to lighten up a bit because I would get like him..hypocritical, wanting things to be perfect, and basically “we have orders to do so get it done!” Type of serious and God forbid you act human while doing it.
We got busy towards close last night like steadily enough that we got started on closing down a little later we got an order at 5 mins before close and he switched like Jekyll and Hyde…. “You're impossible to work with” “just go” and I protested and he said fine I'll clock you out.. his anger triggered something in me and I felt unsafe but I still tried to communicate and understand what was going on because it was so sudden and angry and I didn't know why he was acting like that. He said he also gets mad because I misunderstand what he says sometimes.. it was like everything bottled up and exploded.
I called my boss (no one told me she was on vacation starting that day) and kind of unloaded on her about everything. Including this one coworker that also yells at me a lot and also told me o was too uptight and needed to get laid, and advanced me.
I was still told I need to figure out if I'm happy working there and my boss proceeded to still seem to think her team is perfect and said she trusts me over them.
I also understand to the younger girls, because of the people I've worked under before, I can be a little…”mean” to them on their eyes. I asked one of them about this, apologizes for possibly making them feel such a way and have been actively working on it. I just feel like I can't win. No one treats the other girls like this. I know the guys typically have their issues but hash it out and I'm not sure if I AM part of the problem or what. I get too casual sometimes and I understand not everyone is open and casual as I can be. And I've been used to working with many people who are also like that.
Many days I feel like I should show up, shut up, and work .
My boss said she would talk to upper management and let me know how things were going to go this morning and I never heard from anyone but called out and said I don't feel I should go in until I hear from one of them.
I am torn between refusing to pushed out and just removing myself.