I know these kind of posts happen a lot here but I really needed to get it out of my system.
I know this is an anti work, but I honestly really love what I do. I’m a childcare provider and I feel good about the work I do and the effect it has on other’s lives ((that being said, I do hate working and would rather not. I’m just happy I’m in a field I don’t dread doing day to day))
I make slightly above the average going market rate for what I do, and it’s still not enough. I can’t bring myself to go up to the top of the price point because I have the ethical struggle that it then prices out so many families that need care for their children.
I work 40 hours with my main job and I do a lot of after hours childcare. Im currently on day 10 of a 17 day sprint of working in some capacity everyday. I’m doing this because I can not continue to do nothing with my life. I hate capitalism and I hate being a consumer. But going to work, coming home, going to bed, rinse repeat really has effected my mental health and I need to do SOMETHING. but of course everything costs money and where I live the price of living is high.
My fiancé and I have 1 vacation planned for this year and that is another reason we are taking on extra work to be able to afford this vacation we desperately need. It’s not even anything extravagant but it still puts a wrench in our finances.
I feel trapped and I’m so tired of living this way. Moving isn’t an option right now and we hate our living situation but it’s one of the only options around the area that we can afford.
I’m just so tired.