I know I can't blame this all on GEICO, but I feel they are a big contributor. I started at GEICO when I was 20. It's the only real job I've ever known. I have spent my entire adult life supporting a company that no longer cares about it's employees. I legit feel dead inside…like I just wasted the past 25 years of my life for nothing. I have isolated myself, and I used to be a very social person. Now, as soon as I turn off the computer, I want to go to bed and not wake back up. Don't get me wrong, I'm not suicidal by any means, but I used to value my life. I have stopped reaching or or calling friends and family, because honestly, dealing with people all day every day is depressing. People are assholes, and we are just expected to take it with no emotions. I've bottled up those emotions for decades, and now I just feel like I “exist”. I don't look forward to anything. The negative feelings have consumed me, and it's turned me into someone I am not. I have no motivation or drive to do better. Again, this I'm not one to place blame on GEICO…, ultimately I should be the one to control my emotions….but fuck…I feel sad. This isn't a cry for help, and I would never hurt self…but for the first time ever, if I fell asleep and didn't wake up, I think I'd be ok with that.