First off, yes, I'm actively looking for a new job. This shit is not worth what I'm making right now.
I work in a small office where the majority of the people either know each other really well or are related so it's definitely a cliquey dynamic. Didn't really give a shit until now. This is my first job outside of retail/customer service and I've been doing this a little over a year and a half. It's been really challenging learning everything especially since my brain is riddled with ADHD, and sometimes there's still some things that I don't quite understand and sometimes I do have to ask the same question or ask about a process I've already done a few times to make sure I'm doing it correctly. My boss knows this and told me from the get go that she understands because her son also has ADHD so it wasn't anything she wasn't used to, she even encouraged me to repeat any questions I needed to. She also told me from the beginning she doesn't care how I get things done as long as they get done, and they have been.
Recently we started using a new software company wide to make processes a lot easier and smoother. Technically it has in a lot of ways and I was eager to get started because I know that using this software will really help boost my resume. Thing is, now, there's a 24 hour time limit to review and approve/reject deals and get them booked once the materials in the deals have been delivered. Hasn't been that big of a deal or made things any more difficult, unless there's a lot of things to review and go through at once, which has been the case over the last couple of months.
Recently, I've been under a lot of stress due to several situations: I'm dealing with a lot of health problems that are really hindering my quality of life. After a doctor visit to address this I'm currently in the process of being diagnosed with celiac disease. It's also possible that I may have found a cancerous lump in my chest, which I'm still waiting to get checked out later this week. On top of that, our bills are sky fucking high after rates were raised for some of them, and I've been having to bring one of our cats to the vet a lot recently because of a urinary problem. Thought it was a UTI that had been resolved until last night when she started peeing blood on the floor and I had to take her to the emergency vet, which was ridiculously expensive. My boss is aware of all of this.
Recently I started becoming less productive because of how stressed I am about everything going on right now and my health conditions. I've been doing my best to stay on top of things but to be real, I haven't been doing as well as I could. My boss's way of handling this has been constantly asking me “what I need” for something that she can see I haven't gotten to yet. Sometimes I'm working on something else that needed attention first, sometimes I'm literally in the middle of doing what she's asking about, and sometimes I'm taking a few minutes to chill so I don't have a fucking meltdown. She clearly thinks I'm not doing what I'm supposed to be doing but isn't directly addressing it and micromanaging me instead. Again since I have ADHD, I've dealt with this kind of shit my entire life and I absolutely loathe it. To top it off, a coworker who works the same job I do and is good friends with my boss, is doing the same fucking thing. She's also been giving me a serious fucking attitude, I'm guessing because she also thinks I'm not doing my job. This pisses me off even more than my boss's behavior because this woman is acting like she has some kind of seniority over me which she certainly does not. On top of that, everyone is normally pleasant and chatty but almost everyone in my department won't even acknowledge me unless they have to about work, so I know they've all been talking about it when I'm not around (they all LOVE talking shit about anyone that they think is stupid or not doing their job but will never actually address it with the person).
To make matters worse, I learned from another coworker who does the same job as well that she's also being micromanaged. She just recently got back from being in the hospital for almost a month because she almost fucking died. She's still recovering. We're both looking for new opportunities because this shit is not worth sticking around if I can help it.
I want to address this with my boss but I don't know how to do so because while I know that collecting unemployment would be nice, I would prefer to keep this job until I can find another one. I get the feeling no matter how I approach this with her she's going to try to find a reason to give me the boot. Fuck this shit.