The past has been an emotional rollercoaster, to say the least, and I don't know if I should stick it out and give it more time or quit ASAP.
So, a little backstory: I got a job offer at this place but there was some sort of mix up where they didn't mean to offer the job to me, and instead to someone else with the same first name. When I decided to talk to them about it because I didn't feel comfortable in the job, they said they still wanted me, and the other person would get the too (I didn't want to take anyone's position), so I said I'd stay.
But. I have been miserable since then. And part of me wonders how miserable I'd be if it wasn't for their fuck up. I like to think I wouldn't, but maybe I just wouldn't be happy either way.
This job isn't even the worst there is out there (I've definitely had better AND worst), but I have anxiety attacks at the thought of going in. I've never felt so bad about a job that the thought of going in makes me cry. Everyone has been kind, so it's probably in my head, I just feel like I don't belong since I had such a great “unwelcome” when I started. It's like the whole experience has been tainted, but I'm also well aware I'm just overly frustrated and in my now. Luckily I'm in a place where I could quit right this second and find another job without worrying about basic needs, so I am beyond grateful for that.