24, F. Im currently a criminal defense private investigator. Today my final job interview to be a civil litigation paralegal with a law firm was canceled two hours before I was suppose to attend. I was SO upset at first but it gave me an epiphany. Why am I doing this?? I don’t even like legal work. The legal field is cruel and cutthroat. I’ve cried so much from irritated attorneys or witnesses! I’ve been cussed out, spit at. All of it.
I got a criminal justice degree because I was obsessed with Social Justice and the liberal agenda in Highschool and College. I wasn’t focused on a real career or what I really enjoy..
In the end, I hate my job, I’ve had it since I was 21. I work in criminal defense (I defend your local pedos, and murderers). It’s horrible. Two months ago I was held at gunpoint while working a case. It’s changed everything. My mind, the way I view life, honestly criminals can burn for all I care.
I was going to give it one more shot in the legal field but I actually maybe I shouldn’t. I don’t believe I’d be a good fit tbh. I’m trying to be real with myself. I’m not smart and quick like I thought I was. (That is needed in the legal field).
I know I love admin work and would have no issue greeting people and handling invoices. It will be a huge pay cut but will save my sanity I hope.
I’d like peoples opinions. Has anyone gone through something similar? Change of careers? Going to college and hating what you studied after the fact? Will I eventually get over this?