Over the past few days, I've been dealing with what is best described as a shitshow of training that lead to the situation of repeatedly creating an unsafe environment, perhaps clinically so, for patients and employees at the job I tried to make work.
I've been dismissed by everyone from OSHA to random reddit commenters.
No one apparently understands the equipment and the issue well enough to understand the clear and present danger the incidents represented. Not even the upper management that is supposed to train me and initiate proper shutdown of equipment, should I, for example get really stressed about the fact we could have died and leave early one shift so shutting down would fall on them.
So why would I go back to work? Follow up question, why should I work at all?
In my education, I was trained to work in a lab environment. I was trained to never slip up and start behaving in an unsafe manner because that would represent injury or death somewhere along the line.
The way I was trained, if not every single person employed by, and currently working in a lab, is capable and comfortable operating safely within it, the lab would be shut down.
I, myself, was slipping up in that new job, desperately wanting it to work despite the red flags, and what happened represents me not being able to ignore it when it added up to a very dangerous situation.
And am I going crazy? Was I really this “hysterical” didn't know what I was talking about worker? It seems like I am literally the only one, who gives a single shit, about that kind of standard.
Talking to my job was useless. They were treating me like what they hired me for was to hit the ground running and understand this equipment for them, and if I can't do that, I can start packing my bags and not even coming in.
I have a job interview for a childcare place later. I think I'll just cancel. I'm giving up. No one gives a single shit about my safety or well being, save for me, and not even OSHA was going to help me when I witnessed something STUPIDLY dangerous and more infuriatingly, EASILY PREVENTABLE.