I am burnt tf out of corporate life where all of my actions roll up to making more profits for already super rich people. I make way more money than I should based on how meaningless my job is. I can't keep up pretending to care about metrics and profits and big name customers' happiness. I feel like I'm in a pan that's boiling and everyone is sedated, and also infected with fear and greed. I regularly daydream about quitting my job and being a farmer or community cook for the unhoused.
Every month I secretly give a lot of my paycheck to native groups who are working on land rematriation, and to other mutual aid causes. Sometimes this is the only thing that keeps me going, knowing my money is going somewhere that's actually good for the soil and the people of this earth.
Instead of working in the corporate world, I want to step back and figure out how I can devote my life to reparations, restorative justice, ancestral healing and land work in a more full time capacity. I realize I won't be paid to do this work, and that I will probably have to work some other less soul sucking job for way less money while the economy and climate continue to collapse around us. I want to join the people who are preparing their communities for climate change, and put in the spiritual, physical and psychological work required to build another way of living.
I've joined a community group that fights for racial justice, and have joined another group that reconnects me to my ancestral connection to the soil. I'm also learning about my colonizer family history so as not to avoid it. I've been making art about ancestral reckoning / healing to help me digest the heaviness. And with all this, I still hate my job and would rather be in nature all day. It's like my soul is starving for nutrition and I'm following what brings me (and ultimately those around me) love, peace, and connection.
Is anyone else here turning this corner (leaving their corporate job) & have advice to share? I feel scared and anxious about making a big life change / leap of faith.
EDIT: I'm partnered without kids, been in the workforce for about 18 years, and during the pandemic have given most of my modest life savings away. I want to fight for and love this planet and all living beings of Earth with everything I have.