I hate my job so much; it makes me so miserable, and is really affecting my mental health – and, by extension, my physical health. I’ve never really been happy in my department due to my coworkers being annoying bootlickers, and my bosses not liking me for doing the same. I don’t think they like the fact that I’m more technically inclined than they are – they’re both music majors who somehow managed to become managers of the Marketing Intelligence Department…) I used to enjoy my job for the most part, doing advanced Excel development type stuff, until about six/seven months ago when I was essentially punished for taking eight weeks of FMLA leave and moved into doing data entry (what most of the team does). It’s extremely tedious, mind-numbing work that is horrible for me mentally. My skills are definitely being wasted.
Besides that, being micromanaged, and having my work picked apart for things they are just making up to get on me about, I’ve reached the point where I don’t care anymore. I don’t remember the last time I’ve done more than an hour of work in a day, and most days I can’t even manage that. I’m so tired all of the time, and just sit at my desk and eat all day. Gotta get those Dopamine hits where I can. I’ve started drinking on my lunch break which definitely isn’t helping matters either…
I’m currently looking for a new job, but it’s taking a bit of time and is made more difficult by the burnout caused mental fatigue. I’m hoping that they’ll just get rid of me, so I can devote more time and energy to the job search, and get a little bit of unemployment in the process. I know that it’d help me a tremendous amount mentally, but, other than my therapist, nobody I talk to likes that train of thought. So, I just figured that I’d try to get your opinions on this situation.