My job is objectivly good. My colleagues are nice, my manager is supportive, I work for a non-profit (healthcare) in the IT department. My salary could have been better in a more corporate company but I don't want the pressure of a corporate environment. Right now I barely have deadlines, yes sometimes something springs up with urgency but I'm not expected to constantly “perform”. The downside is there is no room for promotions.
Lately it's just been harder to drag myself out of bed. Even during weekends the only reason I get up is because my partner wants to have beakfast/lunch together. I've been fantasising about quitting, just doing nothing and living in a van. Even though my job is ok I still hate working and can't imagine doing this for the rest of my life.
If anyone suggests therapy: I've been on the waiting list since Febuary and will start my treatment next month.
Please tell me to not quit my job. I will regret it. I've finally found a place after two companies where I either had horrible colleagues (who yelled at me) or shitty management who expected constant output.