I have started a new job, I’ve only been here two weeks but it is driving me nuts. It’s not toxic like my last job, but I sit all day doing nothing. My mind can’t help but race and think about what I should be doing instead.
It is also a complete open space. We have no sort of privacy. It has really taken a toll on me. I’ve become an awful person to be around. I’m constantly overwhelmed and I even have to go hide in the bathroom to cry.
I had such a hard time finding a job in the first place. Objectively, I tell myself that this is the best I’m going to get for now. I have free time to work on other things if I want to. This can be hybrid etc. I shouldn’t just quit until I find a new source of income.
I just can’t get out of my head. I feel watched and judged for not doing anything but it’s because I have nothing to do!! They have no one to train me but I still have to come in everyday even though it was advertised as a hybrid position.
I guess I’m just looking for ways to make this bearable in the meantime. If someone has struggled with something similar, where your mind is making things 10x worse, or even if you have success stories that can give me hope. Thanks for reading.