I changed careers into software development and worked hard to get where I am because I'm not naturally good at it but the old job was making me so miserable I had to change something and couldn't deal working with annoying clients anymore.
Unsurprisingly I'm still unhappy and depressed – I just don't like to work. If only I could blame the company but this time the company is actually great, the colleagues are so supportive but I just can't do it. I just don't understand how other people have the energy to power through the day to continue on doing their meaningless tasks and calls.
I feel like soon, if not already they will catch on and I'll be in trouble but won't have enough motivation to do anything about it so will be just stressing out procrastinating until they throw me out.
I also don't think me feeling depressed is unnatural, I think the work we do is. How do other people do it? I wish I could get on like they do, life would be so much easier…