This is mostly a vent post.
One of my coworkers is comic book level evil. He is literally known statewide within the department for being a menace. He is the most egotistical, crazed vengeful human I have ever met. Truly one of a kind and I wouldn't be surprised if he was a failed government experiment or something. (I'm joking obviously…kind of). My boss is just a straight up lunatic with so many untreated mental health issues that cause him distress that he takes out on his employees. I would get into specifics but I tried that on a post here before and it blew up and I got paranoid that somehow word would get out to my superiors that I was posting about work even though I was quite vague in my last post.
I dread work every single day. Myself and 3 of my coworkers are basically literally trauma bonded at this point and are scared of leaving the job and leaving each other behind. I'm not even joking. We are all in literal hell but all we've got is each other. We're constantly gaslight by higher ups that we're “lucky” to have this job and that we're “lucky” we get such good benefits.
I suffer from pretty bad executive dysfunction and fought SO fucking hard. So unbelievably hard against all odds to get this job. It's a job that kids dream about, it's famous and sought after, and it's destroyed me. I fought so hard for this, hoping it would be a new beginning after enduring such a rocky start of life. But nope, out of the frying pan and into the fucking deep deeeep fryer I went.
I need to quit or move locations asap but as soon as I get home from work I have to sit with the lights off and silence just to decompress. I have no energy to work on a resume.
One day when I quit the department all together I will expose them. The shit is unreal and I was blinded by the desirability and high status of the job to notice the red flags before I got sucked in.