I hate retail. I hate retail so fucking much. In my dying breath breath I would have no loving sentiment to share with my family, my last words would just be “fuck retail.”
I used 5 days of my PTO. Was supposed to be off until Monday. Tonight I checked my start time for Monday (because in retail open availability means fuck you and your needs for a consistent work schedule) and apparently I'm actually going to close tomorrow night and run the store by myself Sunday. That's news to me because I have screenshots from before my PTO started showing that I'm supposed to be off through the weekend.
Part of me wants to turn my phone off, show up Monday as originally scheduled, and show the screenshots that show I'm not fucking supposed to be there. But if I do that I'm fucking over other people and I'm not about that. They didn't dick me over and I have to work with them after this.
I am the lowest paid manager in this store with the most experience aside from my boss. I didn't know I was being lowballed by the dickhead who hired me and all the other managers have since been fired and rehired, so the new people are all making at least $5-10k more per year. Regardless, I am the only keyholder who has the slightest idea how to do my job which is a miracle because not only have they not actually fucking trained me but I spend most of my time doing the other keyholders' jobs for them – taking in trucks, cycle counts, fixing problems in the other specialty department (aka making shit up on the fly and giving shit away for free so none of the animals that make up our clientele assault our cashiers).
I desperately need a new job but I know that if I go to another retail position it's going to be the same insufferable bullshit. What else is there besides call center work or food service, two flavors of the same hell I'm already living, for someone who never got to finish college? I used to be a camgirl, if I made a living wage at this dumpster fire of a job and had a place to live with the privacy to stream again I'd do it in a heartbeat. This is a nightmare. At least being an e-whore paid enough to maintain my dignity.