So this was originally written for a different community I couldn't post in…seeing this is anti job….I can imagine the responses but I'll post anyway just to get this off my chest.
Is it okay to not feel like I SHOULD feel like a stressed out POS for not being unemployed?
I had a good paying job but quit due to the stress and how I did not fit into the mold of the career at all.
I have a great chunk of money saved.
My boyfriend makes a good deal of money and offers over and over to just let him take care of me if I were to work at home, do freelance like I've dreamed, or simply just decide to stay at home, be a housewife, and run the farm. We want to have kids and homeschool eventually.
I know him well. It's not a control thing. It's just a “let me take care of you, you don't need to stress” thing. His parents support us emotionally in this decision.
But mine, whom I still live with (and they love that, they have admitted they kinda dread me moving out and getting married) have both worked unfulfilling jobs their entire lives and think I should be doing the same if it leads to having good insurance and income. They don't really give a damn about my happiness, and laughed when I told them my last job made me feel suicidal.
I have a degree in communication, and I do want a job that I could enjoy and excell in, but we live in a rural area with very little opportunities. My boyfriend also wants to travel soon, maybe around the states in a camper or RV.
I keep telling myself the right job will find me when I'm looking and applying at the right time, and the fact I'm still unemployed may really be a blessing in disguise, but my family is shaming me. I don't want to even fight back then shaming me because part of me feels like I deserve it, though I hate being degraded. It just kinda puts me in a thick negative headspace sometimes.
I know I will make money again soon, even in a way that feels right. I am intelligent and driven by my passions. I just think I'm in a pivotal point… I'm just wondering how to get through these emotions and the jabbing comments my mother and other family members make.