Hallo everyone, something that happened today has caused me to wonder: how long until I get fired?
Background:
I got my first job as a cashier at a grocery store about exactly 1 month ago from today, and today I decided that I didn’t want to go to work (I will explain more below) and so I called at the time the shift was supposed to start and I said that I’m not coming in today. The manager sighed and sounded displeased. I think I know from that reaction and what followed that I will be getting fired soon. Continuing on, after I said that I won’t be coming in, she asked why and I said “do I need to justify why?”, and she started telling me about how they’re short-staffed today (that’s not my problem) and then about how people calling off are supposed to do so 2 hours beforehand (that’s reasonable) but I then responded that I looked through the handbook and didn’t see that (which is true. I looked before calling! It’s not in the handbook.). She said that it was told in the orientation (1 month ago) but I don’t remember hearing that. The only few things I remember were some videos about how to escape a mass shooter. Then she said a few times that I need to “think carefully” about this. She said that I (apparently) made a commitment to having a job and so I need to think carefully about what I’m doing. (I know very well that is a narcissistic shaming tactic). She reminded me that I have been late a few times (that is true and idc) and so that’s also why I need to think carefully about not going to work. Then I went quiet for a few seconds and I think she just accepted that I wouldn’t be going to work. She said bye and I hung up. This interaction has led me to the question in the title: how long until I get fired?
Now, I said that I would explain why I didn’t want to go to work below, here it is.
I have never had hemorrhoids before until I was made to regularly stand 6 hour shifts with only a mere 20 minute break. (Should I go to a doctor about that? They only hurt occasionally.) Also, I feel like the skin on my hands and fingers specifically is becoming thinner and worn out because of all the packages that I have to touch as a cashier. The store does not provide cashiers with gloves. Further, in the first month of working, I already experienced 2 racist incidents. They both began when the customers saw my name tag. Am I supposed to expect to experience 24 racist incidents per year? And finally, I have scabs on my nose and it’s raw and sore (the sickness is nearly gone now but I had a runny nose and clogged ears and all for a few days) and I think it’s because I have to handle the customers nasty cigarette, alcohol, cat pee, cat hair-infused reusable bags (single-use plastic bags are banned by the NY state government). Again, no gloves, so I have to touch the nasty bags with my bare hands. And sometimes, dirt in the bags gets kicked up when I open them, I guess I’m inhaling that too. I realized that I have to hold my breath when handling their bags because they all smell so bad.
So all of these things combined have made me displeased and agitated about the working environment and made me decide that I just didn’t want to go today (this is not the only day I didn’t want to go, I think it was about 2 weeks ago that the job made me genuinely want to bash my head in and hort myself! Thankfully I transcended those thoughts.)
How long do you all think it will be until I get fired? And does anyone have any advice? Thank you!