I am in my 40’s and I’ve spent 20 years in my career. I’ve worked my way up to a Director position and I make really good money. I work in pharma and my base is $230,000 a year, not including long term incentives and bonus. I know it seems like this is a good problem to have, but I hate my job. My company is a freaking shit show. My soul is slowly dying. There Is restructuring at least every month and I feel like spinning my wheels. My stress level is through the roof because I care too much and I don’t feel like I’m doing meaningful work. My husband has a respectable job but I make over 3 times what he does and we have two kids who are going to college soon. Luckily he will have a pension at some point. I feel like I can’t quit and I don’t want to go get another soup sucking job in pharma.
We save a lot of money because I’ve realized that even though I make good money, I don’t want/need a lot of things. My splurges are skincare, hair products, and a monthly massage. We’ve been able to pay off our mortgage and car payments and my husband will one day have a pension.
Here’s the problem. I feel like I’m wasting my life away. I’ve been at my current ob for 6 months and I love the people I work with but I’m so sick of the corporate bullshit. I care too much about everything and I let everything get to me. I think about my job nonstop. I’m miserable.
How do I stop letting my job get to me so much and how do I stop worrying about constantly producing and proving myself?
Maybe I need a hobby but I need some perspective here. Thanks.