First up, I’m ok, just feel like venting. I’m sorry if this puts any unnecessary negativity out there, just trying to get a few things off my chest.
These days it feels like the harder I try, the harder things get. I quit drinking, yet my moods and energy levels are in the dumps. I’m trying to cut back on my expenses but prices keep going up. I don’t buy luxury items, just food, yet every time I even do that I get this icky feeling like I’ve been scammed.
And I’m lonely, it’s not even dating so much as having a stimulating conversation with someone who’s emotionally intelligent. I’m lonely, so I try more to reach out to people, but the more I reach out the less I get back. I don’t know, I don’t have the energy right now to paint colorful prose about how it all is. I just feel like I don’t have a role to play in society and it’s sad because I feel like I’ve got a lot to give. I dunno, just tired.