For context I am a personal care aide. Relatively new, was certified on august 31st.
I know it’s just another day objectively-speaking, but my years seem to be getting worse and worse. This woman fucked me over bad last summer, and after I was there for her all summer, and even after our falling out wherein she claimed to touch base when back on her feet, she ain’t touching shit of mine.. instead of touching base, throughout august September and October now, she has just been liking TikTok videos.
Why is it so hard for me to block and delete her number just as I have done for estranged family members? Idk. But I do know that even if I have “only” a 5hr shift today instead of 8 or 12 hr one, and things could be much worse (I’m not actively dying in a third-world country), I’d much rather be spending time caring for ME, MYSELF & I—for once in my g-d damn adult life!!
Instead of people making me a birthday cake or even wishing me a good day, seems like I mean nothing to anyone not even including employers. Birthday PTO should be an option on the table. We all have mental health. All of us. And if we don’t have time to care for ourselves, how can we ever take care of others? I’ve been so goddamn selfless with everybody.
My year is ruined, my summer was ruined, my birthday is ruined. And now it’s just another day or crappy workweek. Fuck this!