English is not my first language so please, excuse any mistake.
I hate working. I hate that. I make everything to get out of here asap (investment).
I know damn well I am not the worse case: I chose my field, then became a freelancer, chose my projects, have a better salary than most French people, chose what (time of the) day I want to work, chose the place I want to work from, get to travel…
Unfortunately, I stilI hate working.
The level of stress is insane to the point my scalp is itching and I lose hair.
Its killing me inside knowing I spend my time being forced to do something I don't want to do because I can't be paid with for my hobbies.
The worse for me are people. Here is the last thing that happened that brought me here:
The client of my client I am working with for a few weeks sent me an email on Friday 8PM and ask me if I have received the previous email from someone else (15 mn before hers).
We were all in cc and she knows damn well I have received it. This just meant “please, action”.
I replied ” I work from Paris and its already night so, I will take care of it on Monday” and wished her a lovely week end.
(She works from Chicago).
This morning, I wake up and see two emails from her :
- Sunday 10 PM – urgent please reply to blablabla
- Monday 6 AM – you didn't reply to my last email blablabla!!!
This with the constant drama.
- she was off, asked a colleague to modify an info about her to me
- Tuesday, she asks me about this info which was still wrong on my side as I didn't get the update from her colleague so I didn't know. Gave the info to her. Never heard from her.
The next day:
Mail from her with everyone in cc: “the whole file is WRONG, wrong INFORMATION EVERYWHERE PROBABLY SENT TO EVERYONE”
To the point someone asked me “wow, it's scary what happened?? What did you send?”
Note, everytime I have to give a clear explanation to people of what happened when she could have said “I have changed this info, didn't you get it?”.
I always defend myself and my tone makes it clear they are being extra for nothing.
Most of the time, they don't even answer cause they know ITS DUMB.
Somehow, somewhere, you always have to deal with someone like that.
And when I am not working, I take a few weeks off between each projects, I turn into a butterfly. I feel so good, I enjoy life so much!!!! The level of serotonin is fucking high.
Until the next project.