I work a manual labour job loading roofs, i wake up every morning wanting to shoot my brains out. I can't though, i dont want to die, but i cant keep working every morning. I can't find anything else either, i want a stay at home job so i can focus on my life, workout, eat more, and just have a life, but i cant find that. I honestly dont see myself doing this for another year, or my entire life. I genuinely don't know what yo do, i have a hs diploma and thats it. I've been thinking of just joining the military, but thats probably a bad idea. I cant even wake up to eat breakfast anymore, i just lay there until the last second contemplating life and why i have to do this shit. It's slowly getting worse and worse. I really need something layed back or at home.