I got laid off last week so now I’m forced to look for work so I don’t starve or get evicted and I honestly wanna climb into a hole and die.
I can’t tell if it’s burnout, depression, or full disillusionment from our capitalistic nightmare of a job landscape. But I… don’t want to work. I don’t want a career. I want nothing to do with any of this.
I sound like a brat but I can’t help but think “there’s gotta be more to life than endless cover letters for 100 jobs I don’t want!”
What am I contributing to? Who am I trying to impress? What good am I trying to do when all there are is project managers and content managers and analytic support and customer service? This feels so fucking bleak.
I wish I could just run away into the woods and my work consisted of foraging for myself and getting sunshine and snow while I attempt to live off my own work for myself.