I’m literally at the lowest point mentally and physically for the past 3-4 years.
Been unemployed for almost a year and a half now.
I’ve applied to literally every job in my field that pops up (animation). I put in hours to get guild membership, fees I still pay for. I do 2d design, 3d modeling, social media videos, mograph, 2d animation, and a lot more.
I thought a client I had last year fulltime was gonna bring me into a generalist role, but the team that I wouldve joined got laid off instead.
I have been trying so so so so so so so soooo hard. I havent gotten a single actual job reply since july, where a recruiter friend literally said I’d be a shoe in. Suddenly the client just stopped all contact with him, and he told me “idk why”.
Thats been it.
I got some freelance, but my morale has been so low that I feel like I bombed each one of those opportunities
I’ve applied to coffee shops. Art stores. Waiting tables. Janitorial. Grocery store. Scoured craigslist.
Game design. QA. Studio assistant. Internships.
No reply or acknowledgment that they got my fucking papers from a SINGLE. One.
Literally my only 2 saving graces is I had a career before this one where I neglected my bf, myself, and practically lived at the office in another state, so I (had) savings. The second is my bf is employed for a good chunk of next year (pray they dont cancel and fucking lay him off too!!!) .
Like.. what the fuck.
Yall, in all seriousness, what the FUCK is this shit. I’m at a loss for words. And ego. And braincells.