So for context:
I am a handler and guide at a sled dog kennel
Usually the deal with those kind of jobs is that it provides accomodations and a small $$ pay.
It is my second winter at this kennel, we are a small company that dont do tourism, just races, so I am the only handler there.
I live at the kennel and love the musher I am working with (she grew up as a punk in NYC and as an anarchist myself, we are getting along pretty well).
The issue is we became good friends, when we are also boss-employee, and I have a hard time setting healthy boundaries for myself in my workplace.
We work from 4/6am to 7pm everyday. Sure they are some down times during the day but I have to be ready and at my boss' disposition 24/7.
Lately I had a lot going on mentally, and since I started working in september I only had 2 days off, my mood and quality of work are low.
So I decided to “woman-up” and ask for one scheduled day off for each week, so I wont have to wait to be overworked and burning out to ask for some rest.
When I did my boss freaked out, she was like “Tomorrow off?? But I wanted to go out at 3am tomorrow and again in the afternoon with a second team!!!”. And I said it didnt have to be tomorrow but a day she didnt need me and to that she said “But I always need you” ouch! I already felt guilty for asking for a basic employee right, now I feel like I am letting a friend down.
Anyway she sent me a calendar with my days off for the rest of my contract the day after but now she ignores me. Not so easy since we share the same house.
And she also set me up to fail. Like she will decide to take the dogs out without telling me and when I get outside to help in a franzy, after hearing the dogs going crazy, she comments about how I dont help her.
So obviously I want to quit, Idc about losing the house Ive been homeless before
But I am kinda stuck in this nothern territory without a reliable car and I have 2 dogs. Because I am stuck and overworked, and dealing with feeling betrayed by someone who was like family to me, I am having aot of dark thoughts. This job was for my some kind of rehabitation (first job after getting sober of opioids) and a safe space. Now it feels like I am not good enough, and am losing some “friend privileges”. We used to work as a team but apparently that was only when I didnt ask for time off, now Im doing everything by myself.
So should I suck it up til the end of my contract in april?
I hate hierarchy and I am mourning a friend