I’ve been working nonstop since I was a 15 year old. President of all the clubs, top of my class, full time jobs. I’m finishing up my bachelor’s degree now with almost a 4.0. I have a full time marketing job. Before this, I managed an upscale restaurant, served, bartended, did sponsorship for a nonprofit, etc.
I’m tired. I don’t care anymore. I was always supposed to be the one who would achieve great things. My parents are asking about when I’ll apply for grad schools. When I think about my life in the future, its not in a city or climbing any corporate ladders or even making much money. I’m unfulfilled, anxious, avoidant, and have nothing to show for anything i’ve done. Between 2 jobs and school, I usually work 70ish hours a week.
How do I even begin to make this switch and change the course? Work has always just felt like my path in life. I want to be active, learn a new craft, volunteer, work with kids maybe. Just don’t know how to say fuck it and start.