Just couple of years ago I remember I was such an ambitious person, had clear set goals for the future, a plan to reach them, I was a very positive and highly motivated person.
As soon as I got my full-time job I feel like it all ended. I didn't manage to get into the field I wanted (long story short it's not gonna happen), I'm stuck in a job I hate, it takes up all of my time and energy, when I go back I barely have the strength to do any of my hobbies. I used to be a very creative person, now I have no time and energy to do anything, I feel like over the years my job has made me dumber. I also grew very clinical and depressed, I can no longer imagine there's anything to look forward to, and the thought that I'll have to wake up tomorrow and do it all again just makes me want to off myself.