Even though I actually am paid well, this rat race has taken all of my energy over the last 10 years, and that energy is fading, while my family requirements rely on my success.
I don’t want to do this anymore, but I have no choice. I know I am capable of so much more than bureaucracy and workplace politics. I’m tired of being afraid all the time.
I’m sorry for complaining even as I’m probably better off than most through my work. I just wish this level of self depreciation and hatred wasn’t required for my survival.