Been working for this company remotely for almost 1 year and a half as a Senior Cloud Security Advisor and the vibe and culture never felt right since day one. I never felt like I was part of the team. Coworkers rarely interact with me outside of meetings. Asking them questions on Microsoft Teams and I will get an answer 1 hour later.
I have been too kind with my project owner and my coworkers. Accepting tasks from left to right and trying my best to learn how to use our product at the same time.
And then, a few weeks ago, I had my yearly 1-1 evaluation with my boss and he thinks that I'm not worth an extra 2% raise because I don't talk enough during meetings and I don't interact enough with each of my coworkers outside of meetings. Long story short, our meeting went like this:
“It will be a hard discussion today but, I feel like you are fairly compensated if we compare your salary to your coworkers. I can't give you a raise this time because I think you didn't grow enough in the past year, and I feel like you don't interact enough with your coworkers during and outside meetings. I told you multiple times to talk more during meetings and ask more questions to each of your coworkers and try to put yourself on the spot.”
Since I'm working here, my coworkers went through 2 raises, I got denied both of them. The first time was because I got hired 2 months prior, I was too new.
I always completed all my tasks on time and with quality, always ready to help anyone in my team who need help, and this is how my boss thanks me. I feel sad and very unmotivated.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated