I'm so utterly sick of trying to force myself to care about finding a new job. The last thing in the world I care about is spending hours of my life, to find some job I don't find interesting, just to spend the next few years spending 8 hours a day 5 days a week doing some pointless bullshit that I don't care about just to keep enriching the owners who won't pay you a fair wage no matter how much you earn them. It's almost insulting to think that I'm gonna go through all that effort just to suck some interviewers dick for an opportunity to do a job I don't want and could do with my eyes closed. Not to mention half these jobs only exist to give the company the appearance of growing. I just want out of this rat race. I see no fucking point in trying to maintain my health at this point. I know “everybody needs to work” blah blah blah. No shit sherlock life requires work. If you're gonna come at me with that argument please fuck off. Sure it requires work like gathering food. But you know what? That shit actually serves a purpose in my life and once i'm full i don't need to do it anymore. This is just an endless cycle of pointless bullshit and I feel like I'm just waiting to die at this point. Just running out the clock till i no longer am obligated to show up. What am i getting out of this other than suicidal ideation? How can anyone be ok with this much less the bulk of the population? And how soon can we burn it all down?